'Self-lessness'

    It was a very frightful moment of my life while waiting for the result of Chest X-ray. I don't know what to think at that time. I prayed that the result will be in my flavor, but I admit that before I went to the seek consultation I knew that i would be getting the answer that I'm very scared off.
 The day came and I knew about it at that very moment I really wanted to cry but I guess the Doctor wants to calm me down so He says that 'Don't worry it's curable only if you take your medicine regularly'
  I will undergo under medication for 6 months. Six months I thought of that as another burden to my Family, Now I have to allot some for my medicine, the I talked to my Children to inform them and also to take pre-caution because the first month of my medication is so crucial that I can transfer it to any of them.
I really prayed that I can make it and that I'll be able to afford my medicine. But beside knowing that I Am sick I also discovered one thing.
  The question that keep longing for an answer finally came out. Now that I'm going through all with this I can say that I Am important with my Family not because I cooked for them, I do the laundry for them and realised that I Am special.
   When they knew about it my Eldest did not think of herself at that moment the money she saved to buy her new cellphone, She spend it and bought my medicine and that surprises me, The girl party goer, ambitious one who I knew that who would chase the moon and tThe Star to get what she want now became so self-less.
  Just like what I said in my YouTube channel when I tackled the topic Challenges
 https://youtu.be/ZAZmgnm6zog.

Challenges that came to us not only came to challenge us but it has also advantages and it's the one thing I discover it's advantage to my being sick I knew that I m worthy to the people around me specially to my Family.

                  '  The end is beginning '

   We all know that the Bible says that when the King of most high will return their will be wars, famine,spread of desease and that many will appear to deceive human beings.

  It was Sunday afternoon inside the Church I close my eyes for the 'Our Father' then suddenly a black clouds appear like theirs a very strong typhoon is coming, then I saw soldiers walking with their guns and with anger in their faces ready to fight.  Then I saw war tanks and upon seeing this why I felt so heavy that I could not breathe and thT why I begun to open my eyes to instantly pull out my self in that feeling.

  I really hope that this visions will end but I know He is giving me a purpose since I've been looking for the answer for so long, So now that He is answering my prayer I better finish it for his glory.

 So I hope you who reads this do not smile at me or say that I am loosing my mind because all that I wrote here are visions that God wants us to be prepared since according to the 'Holy Bible''No one knows the time the day our Lord will come so we must all be prepared by making our souls clean. So when He comes we will be sure that we are coming with him in Heaven.

                        'Too late Uncle'

           Confessions too Late.



       
     Last year I received a bad and sad news
                         f rom one of my cousin and it made meshocked knowing that one of my favorite person have taken his own life. Yes He committed that sin to his self,When I heard this at first I got mad,I blame him and asked him Why? But that question did not last for long on my mind,Because truly I know for to myself the reason Why he came to that point. He is all alone by himself an old man without someone to wait for him at home no child that would took care of him, Left alone by himself an old sick man in a room without no one insight for him to tell stories, who would give him water when He thirst,who would be there to laugh and cry with. What would be the best remedy for his loneliness but to end such misery.        The time to bury him came and seeing his sons being there make it hard for me to smile and pretend that it's fine because deep inside I'm blaming them why My Uncle did this to himself.  His two son is in good built,  with work and capable of visiting their Old Father in which I still can remember that I promised to myself that I must speak to them for my Uncle's sake before it's too late...

 But it's too late I was not able to make them visit their Father because I also have other things to do than insist to them and a short period I become mad to myself because I did not make it!  I know I cannot do anything now but to pray and be sorry for him, and the only thing I did was to let him be buried to my Parents grave.
  Days have passed after He was buried it's Sunday afternoon again the day and time when I dont know what will I feel again.
 Then it's time to close my eyes again for the 'Our Father' I closed my eyes then a up comming scene was about to begin.
   A vision of a place where I saw people in white but I'm pretty sure they are not angels because they don't have wings, then I saw a man kneeling to a big Statue I only saw the knee up to the feet of the said Statue. The man in front is like praying, confessing and begging at the same time.
  After that I saw a man in white he walks in my direction as if He's tired and so hopeless that I began to feel it, the heaviness of his emotion then suddenly his face I saw and it surprised me to know that the man is my Uncle my poor Uncle I saw his very pale face and his crying, He started to stretch his arms to touch me but because I did not like the feeling I am feeling at that moment I opened my eyes then the vision was gone.

  I know that vision came to me to let me know that He is guilty and that He wanted to get help from me. But I don't know how?
I am aware that suicide is major sin so I'm not sure if I can still pray for him to let him be saved from what punishment would be given to him. I know God is compassionate so I'm praying that He will hear my Prayer for my Uncle Poor soul.